Past Noten

Les voy a dar escritos previos que no he publicado mas que en facebook. Todos son reflecciones y pueden estar en espagnol o Englisch. (acuerdense que uso muchas palabras de muchos idiomas :)

saca tu enojo con ella. dale todo hasta que no puedas mas. si tu no aguantas, matate. Acabate a ti mismo para que el alivio. No todo lo qu es oro brilla. Me encantas. me gusta amar y me encatabas tu. Odio la soledad pero solo estare. Para siempre estoy en mi viña. Dale con odio, sin piedad, muestra la piedad que se te mostro a ti. Con veneno, para que lo sienta. Cada dia se vuelve mas dificil ser alguien. Es iluso. Dejalo ser por favor. Dios te salva. Saca tu odio, saca tu veneno y entregaselo. Madre Maria, que me dice Dios? Dios, dame tu sabiduria y regresame la libertad! Existe una verdad? o paz? saca tu odio! el veneno! sacalo con toda la rabia! encadenate, muerdete y saboreate. Seinte tu fiebre hasta que explotes. La sientes? Ese es el veneno en tu cuerpo debil. Levantate, con la fuerza que te da Dios, levantate. Saca el odio y el veneno. Levantate mas alto, Dios te lo ordena. Levantate y regresa a el sur. o acaso a el oriente? occidente? Te sientes viejo, acabado, arruindado, amargo. Pero, me encanta verte caminar, eres preciosa. Pero como un huevo podrido. Escupelo, escupe todo el veneno. lo se, no es aburrido. Lo siento, me arde pero me encanta. Me pides que cometa herejia, JAMAZ!!! saca el odio y el veneno poco a poco. VIVORA! Sacalo y poco a poco el fuego saldra!

Anoche te vi en mi sueño
Niña no temas
Llorabas y gemias y reias
No hay amor sin dolor
Cuando fuiste mia ambos sonreimos
Vi en tus ojos la luz del cielo
Tu cuerpo desnudo es la escultura perfecta de Dios
No temas niña, estoy aqui a tu lado
Te protego, te tengo entre mis brazos
No llores niña, nadamos juntos entre amores
Conviertete en mi carne, nadie nos separara
El color de tu alma se manifiesta al climax
Perfecta luz que solo se exhibe ante nuestros ojos
Caes sobre mi, tu piel es terciopelo
Duermes y cierro mis ojos
Despierto y es terrible

dormi con frio anoche
aun ahogado en alcohol recorde tu canto
mi cama te espero ambrienta
solo la memoria de tu carne me daba calor
pero el viento murmuro tu nombre a mi oido
y penetro mi carne hasta abrasar mi alma
y el color de tu voz se mezclaba con los aullidos del viento
tal como llegaste, te esfumaste como los rezos de los santos
que gran faena lidiaste toreando mi deseo
si tal lo buscas, dadme la estocada!
el viento regresa cantando tu remordimiento con alegria
trayendome la belleza de tu nombre y la sonrisa en tus ojos
picara, espero yo el dia de entrar a tu lecho y jugar el mismo juego
por esta noche la majestad del viento se mostro trayendome tu compañia

'Tis a neue Jahr

a new year has started. yes, its a "new year." i wonder? why is it new? does today feel any diferent than yersterday? i dont feel any diferent, do you?look i didnt make any new year resolutions cuz i dont have any. i would of told myslelf to be healthy but i know that im fucked with my health, i could of said i wanted a girl but i know its not something that i can force myself to do. i could of said to stop drinking but i know that i cant.
yea, we propose these things year after year but we seldom acomplish them.what i did do on the eve of dec. 31 was pray. yes you heard right nigga! i prayed to God. i cryed, and i repented for my sins in 2006. i did not tell myself that I was going to acomplish anything. no, i asked God to aid my struggle. i asked God to heal our anger as human beigns. i asked God to send his angels to heal the hate in the hearts of men. i asked Him to let us all be good to each other, and i asked Him to help me be a good Christian.
tis a new year. its a new begging for humanity. i dont feel any diferent from yesteryear. but simbolically we have started a new era. yes, its a new era. for me this simbolizes a new era: my grandmother died, the pope died, kofi annan is no longer secretary gerneral, I have a new president, there are good Mexican films, amber and i are no longer together, i am now in UofM, im getting a new computer, i am leaving my friends for solitude, i cannot drink as much alcohol, i am finally living alone, i saw my friends even less, i will stop to cry. yea, those are the things that tell me a new year has come. new light for new darkeness, new hope for new hate, new love for new lovers, new fights in new places, new destruction for our good Earth, millions more of us to exploit our home, more and more people to destroy the earth, new struggles agaisnt our nature.
can you remember how we ended 2006? can you? we killed Saddam Hussein. im not saying that it wasnt just to kill him, but was that the best way to close out the year? pray to God that the hate that dominated 2006 is purged away for this new year. i pray to God that the bitterness in out hearts is replaced by the eternal light of Jesus Christ.2006 was a horrible year for me, but i have hope.
Can You Find Hope In the Hopeless?I can, thats why I love my country and I believe in humanity, thats why I love my brothers, and thats why i came to Ann Arbor. I HOPE to save my country, but i know that there is really no hope, in fact there was never really any hope. humanity has failed each other, but we must have HOPE. We must love each other.
Let go of your hate and........
Find Hope In the Hopeless..................


.........its over. c`est fini. termino. est mort. Danken Gott seinen Verstorbendont think of this anymore and slowly the nightmare will pass...............if you suddenly feel nostalgia for what was once a dream remember that its DEAD. new start. must be from scratch and harder than before but this must be. the dreams were dreams and they shalt remain as only ilusions and chants to a past long gone. too long has passed, remember the nightmare. for now only the nightmare must remain in your mind. turn away at the sight of that memory, dont let it cloud your judgement and never let it downsize your greatness. i am the only fuhrer!
thank God that there is another chance, not pretty but make the best. Alahu Akbar! renounce to this memory in His name. apparently time has not healed the scars of the past.